A small confession

I have to admit, writing religious content has proven to be quite the challenge for me; mainly because I am not a scholar, I don’t attend lessons or read a lot of religious books as I try to strengthen my faith first by those tools which were instinctively given to us as human beings: prayer (salah), prayer (doaa), fasting, paying zakah, and most importantly, lots and lots of thinking. And also, because I believe that religion is a matter of having the heart and mind aligned so that when I perform my dues, I perform them with conviction and spirit.

When I wrote 7ay 3ala el salah, I got a mix of good and bad comments. The good comments were because it was from the heart and to the heart; I did not claim to be a scholar or even to be well read in religion, but I said what I feel about it and a lot of people related to it. The bad comments were because I was not well read in religion and subsequently, I was not adding much value to anyone by saying ay kalam. Nevertheless, this is a blog about my personal ideas concerning my personal faith, and even though I feel quite hesitant in continuing in these writings, I believe that if this is how I feel about religion and God, and God Almighty sees through my soul and knows all that I say here and understands my intentions and my beliefs and how I see Him in my soul, then I will not fear the ideas of others because they don’t have to read it or like it. I will not let myself be driven into the corner of guilt because my religion is lacking because I know it is, and I believe that everyone else’s religion is also lacking (on different levels of course), but it is our duty as human beings to search into our souls before searching into books and to understand and be convinced why we follow our faith and how we can contribute to it more without having the burden of guilt to weigh us down, as the burden of guilt will always be there since we will never worship God the way He should be worshipped.